Its New Year's Eve, a time where people stay up and ring in the new year with celebration and copious amounts of partying. For me, its going to be easy to stay up late because you see, I just woke up.
This requires some explaining: my girlfriend (oh yeah, did I mention I'm off the market? I'll get into that at a later time) has a theory about how people who have the inability to realize just how much potential they have and instead live out their lives in depression and mediocrity are living in a dream-like state. Clearly, not a good dream. But to snap out of that funk and realize there's SO much more, to take stock of your life and realize that it needs an overhaul, that is waking from that dream.
So what's this mean for me? It means I'm shaking things up a bit! I'm learning to get it through my head that I'm important and I deserve a better life than what I'm living right now. Also, I'm finally getting it through my head that now truly is the best time to get some serious work done on myself in practically every way.
With that, here are my resolutions for 2011
-Lose as much weight as possible. I'll be very strict on this.
-Exercise every week. Also strict.
-Finish the first draft of my novel.
-Start the D&D campaign setting I've been thinking about for ages but have yet to write.
-Get Less Than Super ready to start shooting by summer.
-If I get Disability, get into physical therapy and better my health and quality of life.
-Get out of the house and go do something at least three times a week.
-Spend every Saturday cleaning my room, bathroom, and car. This will be easier than it sounds since weekly cleanings will keep clutter and messes to a minimum.
-Do a thorough dusting of my room once a month.
-Get a job when I'm physically able to.
A daunting list, but nothing on it is terribly difficult. The first two will be tough, I admit, but I'll be damned if I'm going to keep going this way. I deserve better, and no one or nothing will stand in my way anymore.
After all, how can they? They're still dozing.
Friday, December 31, 2010
Sunday, November 14, 2010
An Old and New Concern
That other journal entry I mentioned in the previous post? Still can't get to the photos. So in the meantime...
I see antiques and collectibles from the past, things made with remarkable craftsmanship and quality, items built to last long, maybe even longer than their owners, and I wonder about the stuff being built today. Mass-produced stuff made of materials that are built to last maybe until the next version of the same thing comes out a few years later. We focus on the cheaper stuff; cheap materials, cheap labor, cheap packaging, cheap cheap CHEAP.
The reason why I wonder is because I'm concerned about a future scenario, one where my kids or grandkids see things that were built in my lifetime before they were born and think to themselves not "what a beautiful antique" but "what a piece of broken-down garbage". Such a future sounds quite bleak, at least from a cultural standpoint.
Perhaps I'm wrong. I hope I am. Maybe I'm just not seeing where all of the uniquely-forged items are, or maybe I don't know of the companies that want handmade quality that'll make you a one-time customer because you never need to replace it.
But you know, perhaps that obscurity is what will make the future antiques that much more appreciated.
I see antiques and collectibles from the past, things made with remarkable craftsmanship and quality, items built to last long, maybe even longer than their owners, and I wonder about the stuff being built today. Mass-produced stuff made of materials that are built to last maybe until the next version of the same thing comes out a few years later. We focus on the cheaper stuff; cheap materials, cheap labor, cheap packaging, cheap cheap CHEAP.
The reason why I wonder is because I'm concerned about a future scenario, one where my kids or grandkids see things that were built in my lifetime before they were born and think to themselves not "what a beautiful antique" but "what a piece of broken-down garbage". Such a future sounds quite bleak, at least from a cultural standpoint.
Perhaps I'm wrong. I hope I am. Maybe I'm just not seeing where all of the uniquely-forged items are, or maybe I don't know of the companies that want handmade quality that'll make you a one-time customer because you never need to replace it.
But you know, perhaps that obscurity is what will make the future antiques that much more appreciated.
Wednesday, November 10, 2010
Holy Crap!
Whoops, kinda forgot about this.
Uh... my bad?
I've got a journal entry in mind, but it requires visual aids and I can't get to the photos right now. As soon as I can, though, I'll post something nice and beefy.
Uh... my bad?
I've got a journal entry in mind, but it requires visual aids and I can't get to the photos right now. As soon as I can, though, I'll post something nice and beefy.
Sunday, September 5, 2010
The Sleep Challenge
The events of this week are enough to fill an entry of their own, and they shall do that. However, before I do anything else, I must make this post.
Those of you who have read my previous blog may be aware that I like to challenge myself in ways that will help me grow. And as this is all about rebuilding myself, I figured that a challenge like this one would be most appropriate. And what challenge is that?
THE SLEEP CHALLENGE
Simply put, for the next month I will be in bed with my laptop off and trying to sleep by 2:00am. I figure this should be simple enough, as most of my friends tend to be asleep already by then so I shouldn't really have any excuse to be up any later than that. With this I hope to establish a reliable and set sleeping schedule which will help me both physically and mentally, both of which certainly need a bit of work.
I will not punish myself too hard, as this will be a difficult task, but I must find a way to reward myself. Any ideas?
Those of you who have read my previous blog may be aware that I like to challenge myself in ways that will help me grow. And as this is all about rebuilding myself, I figured that a challenge like this one would be most appropriate. And what challenge is that?
THE SLEEP CHALLENGE
Simply put, for the next month I will be in bed with my laptop off and trying to sleep by 2:00am. I figure this should be simple enough, as most of my friends tend to be asleep already by then so I shouldn't really have any excuse to be up any later than that. With this I hope to establish a reliable and set sleeping schedule which will help me both physically and mentally, both of which certainly need a bit of work.
I will not punish myself too hard, as this will be a difficult task, but I must find a way to reward myself. Any ideas?
Friday, August 20, 2010
374.4
The number you see above is my current weight in pounds, measured two days ago using my new scale. Believe it or not, this is not the heaviest I've been, though its not far off.
So why am I telling you this? I simply want it made known to those who read this, so you can see how far I've come when that number is far, far smaller.
So why am I telling you this? I simply want it made known to those who read this, so you can see how far I've come when that number is far, far smaller.
Thursday, August 19, 2010
Muscle Murder 5000
So this weekend I'll be doing something I've never done before; act in front of a camera.
Eric Vega, a friend and colleague of mine, decided to start filming shorts for YouTube a while back and has been using actors from CSUS in his work, and not long ago decided to hold a very open audition for future projects. How open? Well, if you e-mailed him with your info and he knew who you were, you were more or less in. So I sent off a message and he replied by telling me that he would definitely use me in the future, which I've been looking forward to since. It seems that time has come with "Muscle Murder 5000", a sketch he's written and will be shooting this Saturday. I won't spoil anything, but I'll definitely post it here as soon as its online.
I admit, I'm a little nervous about this. Not only have I never acted in front of a camera before, but this is the first time I've acted at all since my back injury became as serious as it is. I'm forced to wonder if my back will hold out ok, but I must remain optimistic. Besides, who knows what doors this may open for me?
Eric Vega, a friend and colleague of mine, decided to start filming shorts for YouTube a while back and has been using actors from CSUS in his work, and not long ago decided to hold a very open audition for future projects. How open? Well, if you e-mailed him with your info and he knew who you were, you were more or less in. So I sent off a message and he replied by telling me that he would definitely use me in the future, which I've been looking forward to since. It seems that time has come with "Muscle Murder 5000", a sketch he's written and will be shooting this Saturday. I won't spoil anything, but I'll definitely post it here as soon as its online.
I admit, I'm a little nervous about this. Not only have I never acted in front of a camera before, but this is the first time I've acted at all since my back injury became as serious as it is. I'm forced to wonder if my back will hold out ok, but I must remain optimistic. Besides, who knows what doors this may open for me?
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
Can't Sleep, Clowns Will Eat Me
Well no, actually they won't, and this does remind me that I have a great little rant on coulrophobia that I'll do in the future, but nevertheless I find myself unable to sleep.
This is counter-productive for many reasons, the largest being that regular amounts of sleep can help you lose weight, which as you may know is my core goal for the time being. Not sleeping, on the other hand, stresses your body out, increases blood pressure, and wonkifies your system (medical term, I assure you), making it hard for it to do anything, let alone burn off excess calories. And seeing as how I can't do much else at the moment, I would like for my body to be able to do at least that.
Why can't I sleep? The usual culprit, pain. Nothing new and exciting there. But I figured I would at least get this all down before I attempt more sleep, which shall happen right now.
...ok, now.
NOW!
...damn it...
Oh, and I still immensely dislike iced tea. But I haven't given up. Maybe I'll dream about iced tea and wake up and suddenly like it. And if that works, I'm totally going to dream up other things like cleaning my room on a regular basis and math.
This is counter-productive for many reasons, the largest being that regular amounts of sleep can help you lose weight, which as you may know is my core goal for the time being. Not sleeping, on the other hand, stresses your body out, increases blood pressure, and wonkifies your system (medical term, I assure you), making it hard for it to do anything, let alone burn off excess calories. And seeing as how I can't do much else at the moment, I would like for my body to be able to do at least that.
Why can't I sleep? The usual culprit, pain. Nothing new and exciting there. But I figured I would at least get this all down before I attempt more sleep, which shall happen right now.
...ok, now.
NOW!
...damn it...
Oh, and I still immensely dislike iced tea. But I haven't given up. Maybe I'll dream about iced tea and wake up and suddenly like it. And if that works, I'm totally going to dream up other things like cleaning my room on a regular basis and math.
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